Thanks to sulfate-free shampoo my hair is finally drying curly (with the exception of the bits that have been bleached to shit), and the not-red section is currently this awesome raspberry + orchid combo, and IT’S FALLING OUT. MY HAIR IS FALLING OUT.
Not shaving my head yet. Waiting until I can’t avoid it any longer, just in case it, you know, decides to be nice and stop with this nonsense. (Unlikely, but a girl can dream.)
Also I don’t know what’s up with my nails so I’m just pretending they’re going to be okay because let’s be real, I’ll need a giant fucking daily dose of valium if my nails fall off. Strengthening polish + color to hide the weird looking parts. 
My blog is basically just a record of my recovery from Toxic Shock Syndrome right now and will likely continue to be that and little else for a good while.

Thanks to sulfate-free shampoo my hair is finally drying curly (with the exception of the bits that have been bleached to shit), and the not-red section is currently this awesome raspberry + orchid combo, and IT’S FALLING OUT. MY HAIR IS FALLING OUT.

Not shaving my head yet. Waiting until I can’t avoid it any longer, just in case it, you know, decides to be nice and stop with this nonsense. (Unlikely, but a girl can dream.)

Also I don’t know what’s up with my nails so I’m just pretending they’re going to be okay because let’s be real, I’ll need a giant fucking daily dose of valium if my nails fall off. Strengthening polish + color to hide the weird looking parts.

My blog is basically just a record of my recovery from Toxic Shock Syndrome right now and will likely continue to be that and little else for a good while.

1 year ago  #photobooth #my life #gpoy #toxic shock syndrome #toxic shock #tss 
Hey everyone. I guess this is a public service announcement of sorts, as well as an update on my life. This is me doing a saline push before I give myself my antibiotics. Why am I giving myself antibiotics through a PICC line? Because I got Toxic Shock Syndrome and spent the last week in hospital.
That’s right, Toxic Shock Syndrome, the thing that all your tampon packages warn you about, it actually still happens. Do me a favor and go throw out those tampon packages and buy a menstrual cup immediately, because I have news for you. Using a tampon of the right absorbency and taking it out in a timely manner WILL NOT prevent TSS. It will lessen the odds, but it WILL NOT prevent it completely. I got TSS from a brand new tampon of the right absorbency. I got sick almost immediately. Following the tampon box rules lessens your chances of getting TSS, but you can still get it anyway, which they don’t mention, which is kind of fucked up. I’ve been meaning to switch to menstrual cups for ages, and I really wish I’d gotten around to it sooner and prevented this entire ordeal.
I called an ambulance after spending two straight days vomiting. I thought I had the flu. Even the doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong right away, they just knew that I was extremely ill. I spent a week in hospital with some great doctors who were able to treat me and get me well again. Did you know most doctors never see a case of TSS? It’s pretty damn rare. They were testing for a bunch of other random infections when they realized that they should check for TSS. Also even after they get the infection under control, you still have to deal with symptoms. My skin on my fingers and elsewhere is peeling, and my hair might all fall out, so I might end up shaving my head. And I get to give myself antibiotics through a PICC line every day, which is only cool because it’s purple and has a bright pink sticker on it saying when it needs to be re-dressed. The only bright side was that the hospital had a pretty impressive vegetarian food menu, for when I was able to start eating again. I’m not really up for discussing what all happened in the hospital, so just know that I was extremely ill and it was very bad and I’d prefer not to worry people with the details.
So now I’m trying to catch up on a week’s worth of coursework, finals start on Monday and I’m sitting here still feeling kind of exhausted and wishing I could justify napping when I already slept until 2pm. Toxic Shock Syndrome is the worst thing I’ve ever experienced, I don’t think I need to explain how terrifying it is to have an infection trying to shut down your body. Tampons suck, y’all.
Oh, and my dad flew out to spend a few days with me, so I had someone to drive me home from the hospital and whatnot. We went to this place in North Portland where they serve you fish & chips in a Doctor Who-decorated room while you watch episodes of Doctor Who, it was pretty cool.

Hey everyone. I guess this is a public service announcement of sorts, as well as an update on my life. This is me doing a saline push before I give myself my antibiotics. Why am I giving myself antibiotics through a PICC line? Because I got Toxic Shock Syndrome and spent the last week in hospital.

That’s right, Toxic Shock Syndrome, the thing that all your tampon packages warn you about, it actually still happens. Do me a favor and go throw out those tampon packages and buy a menstrual cup immediately, because I have news for you. Using a tampon of the right absorbency and taking it out in a timely manner WILL NOT prevent TSS. It will lessen the odds, but it WILL NOT prevent it completely. I got TSS from a brand new tampon of the right absorbency. I got sick almost immediately. Following the tampon box rules lessens your chances of getting TSS, but you can still get it anyway, which they don’t mention, which is kind of fucked up. I’ve been meaning to switch to menstrual cups for ages, and I really wish I’d gotten around to it sooner and prevented this entire ordeal.

I called an ambulance after spending two straight days vomiting. I thought I had the flu. Even the doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong right away, they just knew that I was extremely ill. I spent a week in hospital with some great doctors who were able to treat me and get me well again. Did you know most doctors never see a case of TSS? It’s pretty damn rare. They were testing for a bunch of other random infections when they realized that they should check for TSS. Also even after they get the infection under control, you still have to deal with symptoms. My skin on my fingers and elsewhere is peeling, and my hair might all fall out, so I might end up shaving my head. And I get to give myself antibiotics through a PICC line every day, which is only cool because it’s purple and has a bright pink sticker on it saying when it needs to be re-dressed. The only bright side was that the hospital had a pretty impressive vegetarian food menu, for when I was able to start eating again. I’m not really up for discussing what all happened in the hospital, so just know that I was extremely ill and it was very bad and I’d prefer not to worry people with the details.

So now I’m trying to catch up on a week’s worth of coursework, finals start on Monday and I’m sitting here still feeling kind of exhausted and wishing I could justify napping when I already slept until 2pm. Toxic Shock Syndrome is the worst thing I’ve ever experienced, I don’t think I need to explain how terrifying it is to have an infection trying to shut down your body.¬†Tampons suck, y’all.

Oh, and my dad flew out to spend a few days with me, so I had someone to drive me home from the hospital and whatnot. We went to this place in North Portland where they serve you fish & chips in a Doctor Who-decorated room while you watch episodes of Doctor Who, it was pretty cool.

1 year ago  #my life #tss #toxic shock syndrome #gpoy #photobooth  2 notes
In case anyone was wondering, I can carry two children at once.
(My cousin’s kids, who I hadn’t seen in over a year, who were super excited to see us, and it was wonderful. It was also a bit like wrangling wild animals sometimes.)

In case anyone was wondering, I can carry two children at once.

(My cousin’s kids, who I hadn’t seen in over a year, who were super excited to see us, and it was wonderful. It was also a bit like wrangling wild animals sometimes.)

1 year ago  #gpoy #my life #mom #addison #hayden #ella  3 notes
Rachel finishing my aperture stick & poke more than two years after we started it. The beginning of my last real night in NY.
(photo by Jakey)

Rachel finishing my aperture stick & poke more than two years after we started it. The beginning of my last real night in NY.

(photo by Jakey)

1 year ago  #my life #gpoy #moses  1 note
Approximate time between clocking out on my last day ever at Job That Said I Couldn’t Dye My Hair and me bleaching and dyeing two sections of my hair ombre pink… LESS THAN 12 HOURS.
I feel like myself again, finally! IT’S BEEN SO LONG.
I’m not going to miss that job very much at all. Yes, I like steaming clothing and making super neat and perfectly organized stacks of panties. (Seriously, I do.) Yes, I liked my coworkers. But no, I didn’t really like the job. Something about it just made me dread going there. The only days I felt less like my life was ending as I walked to work were days like today when I knew I’d be working with Shereena, because we made an excellent sales team and we always had fun. I’m glad my last shift was her and me opening together, I got to end things on a good note with a good person.

Approximate time between clocking out on my last day ever at Job That Said I Couldn’t Dye My Hair and me bleaching and dyeing two sections of my hair ombre pink… LESS THAN 12 HOURS.

I feel like myself again, finally! IT’S BEEN SO LONG.

I’m not going to miss that job very much at all. Yes, I like steaming clothing and making super neat and perfectly organized stacks of panties. (Seriously, I do.) Yes, I liked my coworkers. But no, I didn’t really like the job. Something about it just made me dread going there. The only days I felt less like my life was ending as I walked to work were days like today when I knew I’d be working with Shereena, because we made an excellent sales team and we always had fun. I’m glad my last shift was her and me opening together, I got to end things on a good note with a good person.

1 year ago  #rejoiiiiiiiiiice #gpoy #photobooth #my life 
I’m very picky about my sleeveless button-downs. Finding this one was a bit of an ordeal, but ultimately a worthwhile endeavor.
must have a collar
and not a peter pan color because whoever decided those were a good idea was wrong
must either be long enough to be tucked in / tied into a crop or short enough to actually be a crop
must not have stupid pockets, preferably no pockets at all
must not have stupid embellishments like a random extra piece of fabric
LIKE SECRET SLEEVES THAT MAKE IT HIDEOUS AND STUPID
ideally a solid color because most of the patterned ones I’ve seen aren’t my style
ideally semi-sheer
ideally with wider shoulders because otherwise my shoulders look huge
less than $15 unless it’s quality fabric or that amazingly perfect and important

I’m very picky about my sleeveless button-downs. Finding this one was a bit of an ordeal, but ultimately a worthwhile endeavor.

  • must have a collar
    • and not a peter pan color because whoever decided those were a good idea was wrong
  • must either be long enough to be tucked in / tied into a crop or short enough to actually be a crop
  • must not have stupid pockets, preferably no pockets at all
  • must not have stupid embellishments like a random extra piece of fabric
  • ideally a solid color because most of the patterned ones I’ve seen aren’t my style
  • ideally semi-sheer
  • ideally with wider shoulders because otherwise my shoulders look huge
  • less than $15 unless it’s quality fabric or that amazingly perfect and important
1 year ago  #outfit of the day #my life #gpoy